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How I’m learning to spend time with God.
Even though I was raised in a faith-filled household and have always believed in God, I haven’t always lived for Him.
At 23 years old, I find it embarrassing that I’m still spiritually immature, struggling to be consistent in praying, reading the Word, and even praising Him.
I often turn to distractions that used to fulfill me until I realized they no longer do, which just leads me to search for more, distancing myself from Him.
I continuously run until He forces me to sit.
Over the last month, I’ve been wrestling mentally with where I’m at in life, feeling my faith slowly dissipate as my video performance declines.
This made me realize I was placing my identity and value in my work rather than in God, causing me to look back at the things He brought me from with enticed eyes, thinking it would be better to return to them than to move forward because things got hard.
However, over the course of a few weeks, He opened my eyes to how little time I was spending with Him, revealing that I lacked the proper discipline to seek Him daily.
Not knowing my personal spiritual temperament made it harder for me to connect with God.
